MISS Our Fun Time

We Chat everyday .. but i feel there is something missing .. MISS U so Much ...


`Zie`

14 FEBRUARI 2011 .... Thanks GOD

Today is my Birthday .. people semetimes see this as special day.. coz u was born in Valentine day.. But for me .. There's nothing special about it.. at least for 25 years old ... nothing special.

i was ordinary girl same like the other teenagers who loves to celebrate birthday, get gifts , wishes, surrounded by someone special. well, But i never get those things. i never celebrate birthday or get gifts.. FLAT !! ha ha

the saddest thing was hmm probably my 17th Birthday.. i was celebrate my BD alone inside of my room with candles and donuts and heart ice cream. sooooooo sad hahahahaha..

Tonight 00.00 14 Februari 2011 .. getting older huh..

I just want to be happy .. i need to be more positive and Wiser... more adult and i want to be more patience and less sensitive. Try to Smile wider and Less pretending ( pretend to be smile outside but cry inside ) .. i want to be more open minded .. and i could open my heart to people.. less Ignorant.. I want to be loved.. i want to be someone's special... i pretend to be stronger but still i'm weak.. ah and be healthier person..

i always hope that there is something different between last BD and this year BD ... so what is the diff???

hmmmmmmm NOTHING ..
well i feel weaker, my healthy is shit...
well i have unclear position in my office..
well i have CRAZY STRANGE PATHETIC feelings to this 'strange unique weird crazy guy'
well i still THANKS to YOU GOD for giving me life till now..

LOVE U GOD ... Hopefully i could be closer and fix everything in the future.
LOVE U MOM ... wish u were here Mommy ..
LOVE U my Unique love... will always do even u dont love me like i love u ..


Last but not least

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ..
Wish i could be happier <3

`Zie`

VALENTINE .... atau MAULUD NABI MUHAMMAD ??

Besok adalah tanggal 14 Februari 2011. Ada Apa di tanggal itu?? its Valentine's day Zie.. hari ini gw hang out ke Mall di kota gw. dan sudah gw duga sebelumnya kalo di semua sudut toko2 pasti udah berubah warna jadi PINK.. malah ada satu stand khusus buat kalian yang mau beli special Valentine gift for ur lover. dari mulai coklat sampe bunga mawar.. ewwwwww well i'm not romantic person so it was a bit awkward to saw lots of things like that.

Dan lagi gw ga pernah ngerayain Valentine, selain emang selalu sial krn gw selalu ga pernah lagi punya pacar kalo pas Valentine hahahaha and emang ya itu tadi gw bukan termasuk orang yang romantis dan peduli dengan hal2 seperti itu. Tapi ada moment Valentine yang ga pernah gw lupa.. gw pernah dapet coklat dari cowo yang gw suka sekitar 2 tahun yang lalu.. sweet banget dah walopun kita ga sempet jadian setelah itu.. ;(

Penting ga sih ngerayain Valentine??? gw punya pendapat pribadi tentang hal ini dan gw yakin banyak juga yang berpendapat sama .. kalo memang moment valentine katanya dibilang hari kasih sayang, hari dimana seseorang mengutarakan perasaan cinta nya , hari dimana diisi dengan penuh cinta baik itu ke Pacar, keluarga, teman dll. buat gw.. ga harus selalu di hari valentine.. it could be valentine everyday.. dan buat kaum Muslim, its not Important .. bahkan di budaya kita ga ada valentine2an.
tapi yang buat sekedar Fun... well its up to you guys... :)

Tahun ini sehari setelah hari valentine, di tanggal 15 Februari 2011 kaum muslim bakal merayakan hari kelahiran NABI BESAR MUHAMMAD SAW.. karena hal inilah banyak yang menanyakan .. lu mau ngerayain valentine atau Maulud Nabi ?? well, ini sebenranya hak setiap orang .. untuk kaum muslim tentu aja lebih baik dan afdol untuk merayakan Maulud Nabi.. yang Non Islam tentu ga bakal mauludan donk...

Di twitter pun semept nongol di trending topic tentang ini.. dan once again its up to u guys.. for muslim.. lets Mauludan di Mesjid masing2 ..
InsyaAllah sebagai muslim gw juga mau muludan aja dah ... oke cuy :)


`Zie~

DJOKOVIC WON AUSTRALIAN OPEN 2011

Finally Team Djokovic can LAUGH so hard .. well i know this kinda late .. tooooo late.. but i still wanna post it :)

I was so happy like crazy when finally my Lovely Djokovic won his second grandslam title..i wasnt sure about him at first.. coz he made too much drama lately..and the draw also looked not too good but i had nothing to say after his performance. very strong, powerful, confidence, very positive.. he looked different. very strong.

After he played against Berdych.. i was more confidence about him. Even when he must play against Federer, i was still very sure that he would win this. In my opinion, federer played not in his best play so no doubt Nole would win this. And i was right.. He won the match straight sets.. went through to Final against MURRAY ..

honestly, i wasnt sure that Novak would win over Murray , coz Murray played really good but it was just like out of expectation.. Murray played really bad.. And that was it .. NOVAK WON Straight sets and took the trophy ...

CONGRATS NOVAK

look forward for another Grandslams
Always love


`Zie`

BAD Feelings...

Its been a while ...
Lots of things happened in these last few days or weeks,, i had these crazy feelings.
I cant even describe into words. And No one understand..
SAD...
SCARED...
UPSET...
ANGRY...
NUMB...
BLANK...
EMPTY...
CRAZY...
those feelings made me so crazy ... I felt so down. Try to be strong and face it by my self. I know that no one can help me .. not even my mom, my bro, my friend, my "boyfriend",... And in that condition, someone who i need the most made me Crazy even more.. Pushed me with lots of questions, gave me rude words, told about what kind of women i am, talked about lots of things about him self that made me think more negative. Always wrong... speak wrong, quiet wrong..

i know he tried to help me .. but i also confused about this,, is it because thyroid..??? maybe yes maybe not... i just feel different.. feel sad, lost, gloomy .. feelings that i've felt few years ago..

i feel Lonely.. not because he is busy .. i already knew how to handle that.. but still LONELY and so shocking that i was thinking about hurting my self like what i did few years back. i felt that maybe it could make me better.

BUT .. I STILL HAVE GOD.. i Believe in YOU .. PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGHT AND TAKE THESE BAD FEELINGS AWAY FROM ME,,,


to be continued,,,,,

`ZIE`